Love and the Technological Promise's Burden

Life is a strange thing.

The toughest part of this "adult world" adustment experience for me has been the distance that I feel from someone who loves me like family, a great friend, or a "believed" soul-mate. Love...that lovey love that feels...lovey... Now I am sure that most of the four people that read this drivel have tuned out now due to the assumed mushiness of the update to follow. But that is really all I have to say about it. I miss being loved. Being in my long distance relationship helped a little, and talking to my parents every week helps a lot. but the relationship is dead and gone and my parents are so very far away. The feeling escapes me more often than not. Thats probably why I have been in such a funk.

Am I the only person who is utterly terrified at what technology can do now? Am I the only one who sees the storyline for the Matrix becoming a viable possibility? I saw a commercial for Cisco products and the gentleman on the screen was talking about what the future generations will know as "normal" and what we have been able to accomplish. Ipods, video chatting, electric cars, texting, computers in general..I feel as if sometimes I am the only one who takes the time to ponder the absolutely horrifying results that these technological advances have produced in our society. When I was a kid I didn't have a cell phone and I still went out and played around the neighborhood. I didn't have facebook and I still kept in touch with friends. I memorized phone numbers. I CALLED people, I didn't text them. I had to call girls who I wanted to ask out or...god forbid..talk to them in person!

Now believe me, I am definitely a hypicrite to a certain extent. I have facebook, I have a cell phone, I text, but that is not to say that I don't have a longing for more difficult times. When staying in touch took actual effort. When you called someone to wish them happy birthday instead of just leaving a random scratching on someone's "wall". I think technology is great, but I don't have the same feelings about what it is doing to us. I have begun to fight back by writing letters to my brother, preserving the written word if only between two people, and that definitely helps me feel better. It's just scary to take a step back and look at what we used to be and where we are...and to realize that all these inventions and breakthroughs that were supposed to help support us in an "ever-changing world" may have been the things "ever-changing" our world in the first place.

I wouldn't say that I am nostalgic for simpler times, because without the technology things were harder. But I think I am longing for a more personal and personalized time.

To my friends who have stayed in my life through all the "ever-changes" in this world. I appreciate you and look forward to our next face-to-face meeting so that I can really truly tell you so.